If last week was "Brave Week" (as I dubbed it), then this week would have to be the "Sick Week." I was technically only sick for about 24 hours, Monday afternoon until Tuesday afternoon. Being sick one day, though, has an exponential effect; I feel many days behind now, both with personal and business goals.
A Lack of Motivation
It hurts to write this, but I feel I must be honest. I lost motivation to work on this project. I know these feelings of drudgery originated largely from my illness, but still, the feelings were there. As I shivered in bed with aching joints on Monday night, I couldn't imagine finding the courage to post on Instagram or even to write this end-of-the-week post.
The lack of motivation really started to play with my head. (It also could have been the fever doing it.) I thought I was weird to feel so unmotivated this early in a new project until I read a portion of Business Boutique by Christy Wright. (By preordering the book, I received an email with a chance to read an e-copy and then write a review at online bookstores before its release date.) In a section of the book about the importance of developing a business plan, Christy wrote, "You don't have the energy, you can't focus, and you've lost your motivation" (p. 100).
Signal the sigh of relief! So, I am not the only entrepreneur to lose motivation. Someone else identified with this feeling. Whew!
I am telling you this (just as Christy Wright did in her book) so you don't feel weird or alone if you suddenly lack motivation due to other things going on in your life (sickness for me in this instance). My motivation returned slowly this week as I got more and more energy.
As my energy and motivation returned so did my courage. I call it "practicing courage". That way, if my endeavor isn't an instant success I was only practicing. It is a mental game, but one that works for me.
I cold emailed a women's group at a local church on Thursday about speaking at an upcoming meeting, and I included a speaking sheet outlining some possible topics. I am not sure if "cold email" is a real term, but it is like cold calling...just through the form of email. Notice, that even though I practiced courage, I didn't go completely crazy and brandish it. If I did, I would have picked up the phone, called the church office, and asked to speak to a person in charge.
I am working up to that level of insane courage. At this time in my life, I am in pre-season practice. :) With one cold email a week, I actually may see the game field by age 86. Seriously, though, I am practicing courage on a daily and weekly basis, even if it is baby steps; each step will become longer until it is a full-on stride. Watch out, world! Here I come...slowly. :)
Weekly Timesheet - Summary
Week 2 Total = 11 hours & 15 minutes (*sick first part of week)
Research = 3 hours & 50 minutes
Content/Product = 5 hours & 45 minutes
Marketing = 1 hour & 40 minutes
With Clients = 0 hours *Technically, I have no clients. However, this time could be used on marketing or content/product creation until I have clients or speaking engagements. Because I was sick this week, I didn't use this available time.