Day 126, Week 18 - On the Mend
On Saturday, my husband opened a 4-pack of glow sticks, remnants of 4th of July plus good ol' fashion (cheap!) fun. One of the glow sticks was a dud. It didn't glow. :( Of course, that is the one that had been given to me.
My husband and I couldn't help but see the symbolism in that package of glow sticks. We busted out laughing at me and the dud. It summed me up for the last week and half. Present? Yes. Glowing? Definitely not.
Felt like me before? I am sure you have. I hope not recently, though. I hope you have been glowing! :)
The Darkness After the Big Event
Ever been really excited about something in your personal life or business life?
For example, I will train very hard for a triathlon. Close to the date, I start to hate the training and can't wait for the event to be over. Then, when it is finished, all I can think about is how I should have done things differently both in the race and in the training leading up. It is a high! An excitement to get back to it!
But, then, almost like a thief, a real low sneaks in a day later...a depression that the event is finished...a dark wondering about what to do next and if to do anything.
This time period always does a number on me...on my ego, my mental well being, my motivation, and my confidence.
I had this dark time happen again this week after I presented at the mompreneur luncheon I attend monthly. I was so excited to represent Inspire to Engage officially and to get to be a teacher again. (I love teaching!)
At its conclusion, I had the same high...the leftover energy, the talk to myself about what I could've done differently, and an anticipation for a next time.
But by that night, the darkness had started to creep into my mind. What am I doing with this thing? There will never be a next time. Those women there were so far ahead of me. What could I teach them?
Luckily, I have been through big events like this one before. So I recognized the darkness for what it was...a part of the process my mind goes through when I complete something that pushes me physically, mentally, or emotionally. A triathlon. A teacher evaluation. A dissertation. An interview.
Ever felt like me? Maybe you have or maybe you haven't.
I share for those that have experienced these feelings. You are not crazy. And you are not alone. I guess it is just a natural reaction that some of us have to stress and when the stressing event is over. (Athletic magazines dedicate whole issues to the low that many athletes feel after the big event is over.)
My advice...recognize it and try to move on. Recognizing the darkness takes away much of its power, and you then can start to prepare for your next endeavor.
The Importance of Sleep
I always have known how important sleep is to the body, soul, and mind. But, like your health, you take it for granted until you no longer can sleep.
This week, as I was on the mend, I experienced horrible coughing fits at night and an inability to fall asleep, even though I was exhausted.
It doesn't take many nights of this restless sleep to realize how important sleep is to your overall functioning.
We moms get a taste of this during the newborn phase with each of our children. And some of my friends and family tell me we have this to look forward to during menopause. (Oh. Yay.) I simply had forgotten and had lost my stamina to survive on chunky sleep. You know, you sleep for 2 hours here (1 chunk), awake an hour there (another chunk), then sleep for 1 hour here (yet another chunk). I call it chunky sleep, and it took a toll on me this week.
My brain foggy. My patience thin. My confidence low. My body weak.
As I write, I lift up a prayer for those of you (and me) who find sleep elusive. I pray that you can sleep soon and sleep well. I pray that you are of clear mind and have energy so abundant that it can only be a gift from God.
Choosing Rose-Colored Glasses
Each week I try to end my journal on a positive note or tell about a positive experience I had concerning my biz.
This week, I had a real high--getting to officially represent my business at a mompreneur luncheon. And then I had a real low--the dark cloud of doubt and wonder that often hits me after a big event is over. In that darkness, nasty voices say things like, "Who are you to talk to those women? What could you possibly teach them? They are so much more advanced than you." Really beautiful thoughts, right?!
Because I recognized pretty quickly what was happening, I fought those snarling voices and put on rose-colored glasses.
I started to look at the bright side of the meeting. I admitted to myself how much knowledge was in that room on Thursday. I could learn so much from those women! (Instead of thinking how much I didn't teach them, I flipped my perspective...how much I could learn.) I started looking at their sites and gleaning tidbits of knowledge. I also acknowledged how much fun I had teaching again. If I got nothing else from that meeting, I got to do one of my favorite things in the world--teach! (Thank you, God, for giving me that chance.)
I share with the hopes that if someone else is hearing nasty, snarling voices, you find a way to quiet them. Choose to put on rose-colored glasses. It really is a choice. No more. No less.
Lastly, remember who made you. "For you made my inward parts; you wove me in my mother's womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works, and my soul knows it very well." Psalms 139: 13-14NASB
In plain Southern...God don't make no junk. :)
You are wonderful.
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Weekly Timesheet - A Summary
Research (3 hours suggested) = 1 hour
Content/Product (5 hours suggested) = 6 hours & 15 minutes
With Clients (4 hours suggested) = 3 hours & 45 minutes
Marketing (3 hours suggested) = 5 hours
Total = 16 hours
Takeaway = I am still spending too much time writing (content/product). I am going to work very hard this week to stay around 4 hours. I plan to place a sheet with the suggested time on my computer to help me stay more accountable.